I remember what my
churchmate had told me before. "You will have your major decisions in life
when you reach the age of 20." True enough, I had one big decision that I
never thought would change the flow of the next stories of my life.
It was a year ago
that I decided to let go of pursuing medicine after graduation. I was 19 at
that time. Since then, I wanted to pursue a master's degree after I finished
Biology. I just know in my heart that I want to teach someday. I don't know
how, but I have the heart. But I know it will never be enough. I know that after I finished my undergrad course, I am not yet ready and equipped to teach
excellently. That is one of the reasons that drive me to pursue a postgraduate
course.
Since I had somewhat
a view of a direction where my life will lead to, I made out plans already. I
am a person who wants to plan ahead. However, I failed to see the setbacks as I
walk along. I found out that I cannot apply in the campus where I originally
wanted to apply. My grades cannot make it; and if ever I luckily make it in, it
will be very hard for me to survive.
The good thing about
a planner like me is that I have a Plan B. Yes, I have a Plan B, and even a Plan C, my
worst case scenario when everything else fails. It was really hard for me to let
go of my Plan A, because I thought that it was the best. Lately, I realized
that the mere fact that Plan A has its flaws makes it ineligible to be
considered as the best plan.
I half-heatedly
chose Plan B. It was the same program
that I wanted, but a different campus. The rest is history, and will be
history. I was just surprised of the doors that opened for me. It might be my
second best plan before; but right now, I can truly say that I made the right
choice. I know in my heart that something greater is ahead of me. I'm not yet
there; but I'm getting there. A few steps closer.
This is just one of
the major decisions that I made. There are a lot to go. I have no regrets, because I learned some
things. I learned to let go. And right now, I am learning the art of waiting.
