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Let go of something you still hold on to.

Last Friday, our VG had talked about money and finances; then all of a sudden our discussion ended up in this thought above. That "something" someone thought to be strong enough to but not allowing him to move farther. That "something" that requires faith in order to have guts to let go of it... of that "something."

I am one of those people who tolerates rather than someone who confronts and overcomes things. RESILIENT. For a long time I was that one who strives to survive with that big giant living in me. That giant that I mistakenly hold on to.

If there is something that I have to let go of, it will be my fear. Upon entering the university, there is that fear that came in to my life. Life as an undergrad student showed me a lot of things, including the reality about this cruel world. And a single fear will can attract more fears. There is this fear of what will be my future, then fear of getting a grade of 5, fear of rejection, and fear of being inferior. Indeed, I am a perfectly imperfect being, and even if I post a lot of good things about this blog, you can still find holes in me.

Letting go of fear requires faith. Faith may sound "silly" to others, but isn't it sillier to hold on to my fear? You might probably think, "Pinapaasa mo lang ang sarili mo." There is this saying that faith can move mountains; but sometimes we need faith not to move mountains, but to climb over mountains. It requires action. There will not always have an easy way; but at least, with faith, there is a hard way that we can find and walk on to. In my case, I have to do that hard way of letting go of my fear. I know I can.

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." -Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV)

This verse never fails to comfort me. As I walk to a journey called life, I saw from afar a bend in the road. What is beyond that bend? I don't know, actually. All I know for sure is that it is better that what I have ever imagined... or I must say, the best plan that God made for me. :)